Transparencies ...

OMG ... three posts on the same day!! Has the earth shifted on its axis? Has Jupiter aligned with Mars? ... guess I'm holding true to my life-long pattern of feast or famine.

All kidding aside ... a stray thought just tickled at the edges of my grey matter and I thought I'd give it a look-see ....

I've got a full life ... lots of people and happenings and drama and sadness and joy ... and yet, I often find myself with nothing to say (or so I tell myself). I wander the blog-web world and read about the ups and downs of others whose lives are not as populated as mine ... and find that they never seem to find themselves with a lack of things to say ... or comments to make. So what is it with me?

A natural reticence? Shyness that transcends physical space and follows me here? ... something sillier or more dark and mysterious?

Do I really believe that "an unexamined life is not worth living" (Socrates ... for those who want to know) ... or do I just mouth the words because they make me seem smart and deep?

Am I hiding something from myself? Auto-censoring so that I remain calm and collected ... never appearing overly happy, sad, upset, mad, frustrated, excited ... keeping myself in check, a controlled calm regardless of what may be boiling beneath?

And if so ... what purpose does it serve ... or perhaps I should be asking ... what purpose have I convinced myself that it serves ... living behind this calm mask of words ... well chosen to only give as much information as I think I should give ... superficial transparencies that amount to window dressing?